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you forever
May. 12th, 2025 10:44 pmi will never visit your town
i will never run down your beaches
i will never celebrate your birthday
i will never hold your hand
i will never love my face
i will never find my cd
i will never break my heart
i will never publish my poetry
because i really
i really really really really really
really really really thought
it would be you forever
i will never run down your beaches
i will never celebrate your birthday
i will never hold your hand
i will never love my face
i will never find my cd
i will never break my heart
i will never publish my poetry
because i really
i really really really really really
really really really thought
it would be you forever
to the person who approached dorian and i on the street a few months ago,
you asked if we had any money for food. said you liked our style, and we seemed friendly enough. your family disowned you for being queer, and you had nowhere else to go. i felt terrible, but i only had five quid to give you, so i did. we talked about how there's a baguette world and an eat4less down the road. you thanked us, and we both walked away, going our seperate ways. as we did, dorian told me that they know you - you're a local drag performer. dori ended up sending me some pictures of your work. you're extremely talented.
i think about this moment regularly. we were about 20 feet away from an atm machine. i wanted to get some money out of my account for you. dorian and i would go to that atm machine twenty minutes later and find out that it was out of order anyway, and the nearest one would've been the natwest in grand central. you were so grateful for the five pounds that i had on me, though. i'm so sorry i couldn't give you more at the time.
i don't know if i believe in god, but i know that i believe in you. i love you so much. i hope you're okay. please keep surviving.
xo, floris
you asked if we had any money for food. said you liked our style, and we seemed friendly enough. your family disowned you for being queer, and you had nowhere else to go. i felt terrible, but i only had five quid to give you, so i did. we talked about how there's a baguette world and an eat4less down the road. you thanked us, and we both walked away, going our seperate ways. as we did, dorian told me that they know you - you're a local drag performer. dori ended up sending me some pictures of your work. you're extremely talented.
i think about this moment regularly. we were about 20 feet away from an atm machine. i wanted to get some money out of my account for you. dorian and i would go to that atm machine twenty minutes later and find out that it was out of order anyway, and the nearest one would've been the natwest in grand central. you were so grateful for the five pounds that i had on me, though. i'm so sorry i couldn't give you more at the time.
i don't know if i believe in god, but i know that i believe in you. i love you so much. i hope you're okay. please keep surviving.
xo, floris
i have a feeling you got everything you wanted
and you're not wasting time stuck here like me
( Read more... )
you're just thinking it's a small thing that happened
the world ended when it happened to me
and you're not wasting time stuck here like me
( Read more... )
you're just thinking it's a small thing that happened
the world ended when it happened to me
the struggle is real
Dec. 24th, 2024 08:42 pmi cannot be nice to my friends when we're having sentimental conversations. i can do it very superficially but i am bad at genuine emotion when we are having a serious talk
equally, it is weird as hell for me to message "hey man i love you" to a friend out of nowhere
in other words, i don't think i should be Allowed to be affectionate to people
equally, it is weird as hell for me to message "hey man i love you" to a friend out of nowhere
in other words, i don't think i should be Allowed to be affectionate to people
the mouthwashing grind never stops
Dec. 18th, 2024 08:44 amtime for my 3rd playthrough! i'm watching jack manifold's this time. jack, babygirl, please don't voice anya like that. omfg.
on tuesday, i watched jacksepticeye's playthrough of mouthwashing. i REALLY fucking enjoyed it, so at 11pmish last night, i finished watching slimecicle's playthrough. i think charlie made a few extremely good points about curly as a character, and i've been having a LOT of thoughts about the guy these last two days.
this is all of my thoughts in one word-vomit of an infodump.
( content warnings. )
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( major spoilers for mouthwashing. obviously. )
this is all of my thoughts in one word-vomit of an infodump.
( content warnings. )
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( major spoilers for mouthwashing. obviously. )
mouthwashing moment
Dec. 17th, 2024 11:07 pmwatching slimecicle's mouthwashing vod - you know that scene where jimmy's walking through the cargo unit but he's hallucinating the fucked up donkey thing? i love how that scene is so terribly stress-inducing that charlie literally says about 10 words total for the entire thing.
i've already seen it and it's stressing ME out! something about the sound design and the panning and the shaky camera for that entire thing is just nauseatingly scary. it's genuinely the only fucking reason i haven't played the game myself yet. like. no other scene even came close to scaring me as much as that one does. my heart rate is through the roof watching a youtuber play it.
i've already seen it and it's stressing ME out! something about the sound design and the panning and the shaky camera for that entire thing is just nauseatingly scary. it's genuinely the only fucking reason i haven't played the game myself yet. like. no other scene even came close to scaring me as much as that one does. my heart rate is through the roof watching a youtuber play it.
